I Change

I was born in traditional family, but my father is a moslem, he never really a moslem, never pray, because he was force to be moslem in 1965. My mother not only a house wife, she own a tailor with 3 employee, and sometimes did catering business, lately when I was 7 years old my mother join Christians with my aunt, and I become a Christian also, because public school only accept 2 religions, Islam or Christian.
I become very diligent Christian back then, every Sunday almost never miss go to church, at the age of 11 I learn how to play guitar only to help church when they have seervice. At the age 13 I move to other church, start with teenage group service every Saturday, but that time I was not only go to church on Saturday and Sunday only, on Tuesday I go for bible study or catechism, on Wednesday I helped play guitar at Family Service, on Thursday teenagers have sports usually volley ball or ping pong, on Friday I helped Father's day service, Saturday is teens service, and Sunday in the morning help public service, and Sunday school, and the afternoon also. In a week I went to church more than 7 times.
This continue till 1994, I have time that years, finishing my high school study, and want to apply to university, so I read bible from the start, learn again about Christianity from the scratch. And the conclusion quite surprising
I read about Buddhism, why so different, so old and ancient. At first glance I thought this kind of out of date teaching, and I thought useless. But I can feel the different about person who practice it (not a common Buddha followers). So I study more about Buddhism.
I found out that Buddhism have very different purpose, and different way to achieve that. these things make me learn and compare my own religion with Buddhism. I read bible thoroughly, so that I have comparison for new religion teaching.
Basically Christian teach that divine happiness achieve after death, but Buddhism said divine happiness achieve divine happiness while we are alive. How to achieve it in Christian is from total believe and total submission to the God, but in Buddhism it's all about self effort and how total in your practice daily.
From that practice, I think for Buddhist much more easy to get proof or evidence about final achievement from religion practice, because for christian you need to die first, then you will know what will happen to you. I don't like gambling at all, especially about life achievement.
From 1994 till 1999, research about Buddhism practice, at last that very moment, I decided to be a Buddhist, and start practice, maybe my practice not perfect but I try.